I have been trying
to figure out how to tell you something
I want you to hear from me because I want my love (Heart Energy)
to help open the field of all possibilities for every person I meet!
I have been struggling with -How to share this with you …
I am going to share my private diary entry –
I just want you to know -because you hearing this from me matters to me!
You may feel odd because I am about to share something private from my “Apple -iphone Notes”.
You may have heard me mention -“my diary” aka”Life Energy Update” aka”The adventures of the experiment!”
When you keep a diary you get a-“creative mind of your true nature” and/or you get to study your patterns!
Diaries, awarenss, and joy create -Miracles…Divine Grace… Divine Appointments
My life is one Miracle after another because I am willing to share with you and all that I meet –
Metamorphosis, Miracles, and Manifestation for the greatest good.
I made sure what I am about to share is okay to share because it involves 8 of us we call Team Larsen.
Through out the day, I write in my “notes” to study myself; to make me a better me for you, for everyone I encounter, so I discern energy accurately!
I like myself so much better when I can see amplify the best possible outcome for another!
At the end of every day, I ask… “Did I leave everything better than I found it?”
I am stalling a little because this is hard to do-
Okay – Diary entry:
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Who do I become?
Thank you all that helped me-
G-d
(Mom & Dad)
Robert Mann
Greg Larsen
Dr. Raffi
Gaia
Jen Herda
Jazzy & Tyler
My mantras- Thank you, thank you -yes all is miraculous -because it is – I am that I am!
With now and every past decision complete.
And just like that… it was all over…the trip to California…the road I am so grateful I traveled…thejourney -becoming wife, mother and Wo- man because I married…and am now in a divorced status.
Wow… there is so much rawness still to unpack.
The children that came through us…
Life longing for itself
Their world we cannot even visit
Not even in our dreams
the end of our “Road trip to California story”…
Nearly 16 and 18 years old!
Beginning of the next -what will I call this story?
It begins as co-parents, service to our expanding community, and with giving Thanks!
I was a single wife for many of those years- oh … wow …
We never quite meshed after lock down…
Wow..caring for those no longer with us…
I miss you so much!!!
Thank you Angels for every breath-taking moment!
My heart aches -oh – what we did for one another!
Oh what I did for him. For them.
Remember Sturgeons raise their kids till they are 20 years old.
What a gift we gave our kids… Community that watched them grow …
Cherished by the community! Thank you community -Angels- Guides –
I could no longer choose him…and my heart….
Two separate things now. My heart would have stopped if I had to give myself to him.
My heart never wanted to lose him. My heart never wanted our kids to choose…they won’t have to -we continue in community!
Community won’t have to choose because we are all related through our kids!
For we grew one heart in Each of them with the Holy Spirit and all of the magic we could let in!
Thank you community!
Conscious and unconscious coupling and uncoupling from the start!
Grateful…oh I got “The trip to California” -Oh I got to “Live the Dream” and “Hotel California” -oh sweet Summer – how we would sing that! …
I am most proud of never hiding anything and forgiving everything!
What is you and what is me? Oh wow…the good times I will keep in my mind- and I know we will say the statement “Sometimes it is best to complete!”
G-d, our kids, our community chose us both. We did the best we could!
Wow everything left better especially each of the kids – 2 humans, 2 cats, 2 dogs!
Collage -I want to make a collage of us all at the Next New Moon!
8 of us – 4 -Male and Female of each…how did that happen?
Miracles- Miracle- Miracles
Amazing Grace!
Those stories of woe – I let them go again and again…I learned something each time! Thank you!
I am still learn…oh Thank you ..memories and thank goodness we invited a better way -divorce rather than needing death to do us part.
Really depending on my point of view- what really happens- what happened – I am grateful for every bit of it too! Over time it will all be clear!
The material I have for my comedy show -one woman act- I can’t make this stuff up….
Mom and Dad -I can’t wait to share it with you!
We let the vows go in love -No death necessary to write new vows to our children, community, and each other, consciously uncoupling!
As this “Road trip to Cali” story ends…I am so grateful to have mourned to be in morning- new – good mourning- good morning fresh start days! Tears-tears tear- rewire -tears rewire my brain! I am so strong in letting them fall as they may -today … You make my world so cool!
Every moment is a chance to be present! Every moment is a moment to make the next best choice.
Leave everything better than you found it! With Greg I certainly did! He is better and I am too -having children for me was a dream come true!
So my new life aka “NOW” is always beginning again! “You can never step in the same river twice!”
Feeling ready for every Earthlings emotion for this December’s full moon! Tonight it shines bright Wednesday…. Oh Wednesday…
Your “cold moon” will be at its fullest.
Tonight my heart gazed through my eyes. Thank you for I see your beauty -“long night moon”!
Thank you for the last full moon of this year on the Gregorian Calendar…you are so full as the solstice nears! Last full moon before yule, named after Yule… Oh what a feeling we generate on purpose for life! We will decorate every tree as we do at our northern European winter festival!
Inside now our tree is decorated for Christmas! Candles to light -heavenly light to sit with as I type… Thank you thank you!
Everything everything this time of year honors the light.. Oh brilliant light… within everything … with me…that creates light in the world!
What is more beautiful than a happily decorated tree!
I am not afraid…I do feel very very sad. I tried everything and I know I couldn’t have done any better by another human being!
Divorced, the light in me knows how to be …
Alive.
I will discover it -the new alive me – with every person I see!
Yay – so so grief- and your stages…
Fools fall in love and can only love more – never less than before!
Stages – Denial, Anger, and Bargaining are over -Acceptance – Acceptance and the big D-
Not depression. Decisions – Actions that serve!
Will I always choose love with the open heart of a fool and wear
these crazy heels? Heels heal me -on my tippy tippy toes for how I can grow a better me in every moment!
Grief… flow through me- and reveal… the light within me that is already healed!
Please do it gently as I kneel. Beloved Providence –
Life on purpose
Life with only a yes
Life with no complaints
Acceptance
Values
Committed Action
And
Love, love, love!
Accept what you want…
What you have… grateful for it all!
Keep on going ….
Thanks Mars for being just here and helping me close the open loop. On Thursday, you will be at your closest point to Earth in two years. How I feel you in the vastness of space just 38.6 million miles away at your closest approach.
I hope to find you in the night sky tomorrow. Let me remember -You are in the best vibration for the human race in two years since Mars opposition in Oct 2020. Wow the changes we humans have made since you were this close! Your symbol has changed – You have two symbols now because you are -we are everything is evolving!
Revolving Happy thoughts- Momma – Jazzy- Tyler – Summer – The sexual Wellness classes being dedicated to woman in every part of the world where children and families are drowning in sorrow. Dear Mahsa Amini we are here for you. Your death at 22-year-old has broken every mans open. Every sister -woman, mother, child will learn to dance with with themselves in wellness so your story – Joan of Arc – Thank you – with love! Iran used to be called the Paris of the world…Heaven on Earth we will build oh the reconstruction of Ukraine, Pakistan, Peru, India, Asia… the heart of US too!
Bless you my friend Diary… You’ll hear from me tomorrow!
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If you read this far thank you!
Open heart…
Clear MInd…
Relaxed being
You read my diary –
Thank you…
Sacred!
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Do share your thoughts!
So much love!
Dr. Sarah Larsen simply DSL –
P.S. I will always use the last name of my kids –
I feel privileged to be entrusted with the choice of “Who do I become!”
P.S.S. Greg, Jazzy,Tyler, Angel, Teddy, Gracie, Max, and I send you love!
We all are choosing -How to be a family without the “Death do you part”.
P.S.S.S.
Speaking of death – I am dedicating a free Webinar to Mahsa Amini
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