written Nov 14, 2025
FOREVER MORE – I Remember – My Soul’s Flight
Once, I bloomed resourceful, a seed of hope unfurled,
From prosperous earth where rivers ran gold and swirled—
Affluent dreams in my veins, an enlighting I craved,
A godly man, a priest of now, in mercy’s shade engraved.
We merry-married Mary, in laughter’s holy play,
I laid my ambitions bare: peace, service, oneness’ way.
Wherever winds might call, I’d chart the boundless sea,
For him, for us, for all—my heart is a giving tree.
Yet in his station’s shadow, I found my wings confined,
Stifled breath in humble soil, where roots and reason twined.
He spoke to my core’s quiet song,
was it care
Blind love
Root so deep
Progignere’s call
Beget forth the line
“Progeny y’all!”
Offspring in the blood
a family’s endless stream
Echoing ancestors’ dreams
Care
or none at all,
But poverty’s grip held fast, a mindset like a wall—
Lowly “humus” hummed beneath, the ground from which we grew,
“Humilis” bent like storm-tossed bough, in yielding grace askew.
I bore our Jasmine
She blooms,
Loves
Tyler
Grips
Lips to lips in tender vow
Wow hope began to slip.
No lift from want’s deep furrow; instead, I sank to clay,
My fire dimmed in modest art, ambitions led astray.
Then violence cracked the quiet—like thunder in the meek,
A voice that lashed like hidden thorns, a push that left me weak.
Not ego’s tower crumbling, but fists in shadowed storm,
Humility’s gentle art turned sharp, no longer warm.
Broken on the shore of self, I bowed my spirit low,
Not in grovel’s cold despair, but crushed where secrets grow—
Eyes once uplifted to his light now veiled in survival’s night,
Despair’s full weight upon me, hope lost to endless fight.
Divorce, the tide that washed me free, a severance sharp and clean,
From “humilitas” ‘ unswollen heart, through French and English’s stream.
Separated, severed, sailing back from dust’s unyielding hold,
No longer hooked by modest steps, but seeking truths untold.
Now, roots reclaim their affluent rush, where waters freely meet—
“Affluere” ‘s tidal beat returns, “ad-” to “fluere” ‘s sweet.
From ancestors’ confluence of dreams, to American abundance’ shore,
I land anew in plentiful flow, evolving evermore.
Resourceful once again, ambitious for the peace I know,
Giving from my overflow—I’ve wanted for nothing, so
Jasmine’s laughter lifts the low, Tyler’s gaze turns to light,
In service sown, where spirits thrive: my heart and soul, restored, take flight
~Dr. Shahina Khan Sarah Larsen
Written
Aug 24th, 2025;
I am Dr. Sarah Larsen, and I choose life—vibrant, healed, and full of joy. My journey through breast cancer, divorce, and the release of generational trauma has taught me that every vow we make can be a stepping stone to transformation. This is my story, shared from my heart to yours, to inspire anyone committed to marriage, healing, and creating generational joy.
From Vows to Freedom: My Healing Journey
Years ago, I stood before my family, my community, and my Higher Power, vowing to love my then-husband, Greg, until “death do us part.” But when faced with breast cancer, I realized that clinging to a vow that no longer served my life force was a choice against healing. I chose life instead.
With courage, I asked to be released from those vows. Though Greg initially resisted, we eventually embraced a conscious uncoupling—a process rooted in love, respect, and the sacred act of divorce, which I discovered is celebrated as a commandment and a good deed in some traditions. This revelation, guided by my Higher Power, allowed me to heal not just my body but my spirit, transforming pain into purpose.
Loyalty Redefined: Honoring All Connections
Divorce did not mean abandoning loyalty. Greg, the father of our incredible children, remains a cherished friend and part of our extended family. Our community, our children, and I continue to honor him, proving that love doesn’t end—it evolves. Loyalty to myself meant choosing healing, and that choice extended to everyone I love. By choosing me, I chose us all.
This is the essence of my message: you can honor your commitments while releasing what no longer serves you. Loyalty is not about sacrificing your truth; it’s about creating space for everyone to thrive.
Could you consider Divorce as a commandment or good deed? Wow, feel great and I felt Higher Power showed me these ideas, traditions, and possibilities so I could heal through Higher Power’s guidance. I felt released from a vow that my body stated was “killing me”. Higher power released me from the promise, di-ease naturally left my body because of my first promise: “Put no other Higher Powers Before Me!” That is my highest promise of all my promises.
The Golden Rule: A Universal Guide
“The way we treat people is the way we treat God.”
– Teilhard de Chardin
Across traditions, the Golden Rule shines: “Do to others what you would have them do to you” (Matthew 7:12). This principle guides my every action. Each night, I ask, as Benjamin Franklin did, “Did I leave everything better than I found it?” This question keeps me grounded in love and service, ensuring that every choice I make ripples outward for the greatest good.
An Invitation to Heal and Thrive
If you’re ready to release generational trauma and create generational joy, I invite you to join me. Whether you’ve faced health challenges, healed from past wounds, or are seeking to honor your commitments in new ways, your journey is sacred. Let’s walk this path together, lightly, as Aldous Huxley advised: “Lightly, my darling, lightly.”
A Final Note of Gratitude
I like myself so much better when I can see and amplify the best possible outcome for another! I want this because I “know” the golden rule is the most important “rule” from all of my near death experiences!
“Do one of the above; And live in such a way that you will enrich, and not diminish, our relatives in the Earth family of animals and plants, soil, air, and water.” – Earth Wisdom
Do you ask your self the same questions every night to know yourself better? I learned in High School to do as Benjamin Franklin did. Keep a journal.
At the end of every day, I ask… “Did I leave everything better than I found it?”
“There are only two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle.”
Albert Einstein
With now and every past decision complete.
The children that came through us…
Life longing for itself
Their world we cannot even visit
Not even in our dreams
the end of our “Road trip to California story”…
It begins as co-parents, service to our expanding community, and with giving Thanks!
I was a single wife for many years-
Remember
Sturgeons raise their kids till they are 20 years old.
What a gift we gave our kids… Community that watched them grow …
Cherished by the community! Thank you community -Angels- Guides –
Community won’t have to choose because we are all related through our kids!
For we grew one heart in Each of them with the Holy Spirit and all of the magic we could let in!
Thank you community!
Conscious and unconscious coupling and uncoupling from the start!
Grateful…oh I got “The trip to California” -Oh I got to “Live the Dream” and “Hotel California” -oh sweet Summer – how we would sing that! …
I am most proud of never hiding anything and forgiving everything!
What is you and what is me? Oh wow…the good times I will keep in my mind- and I know we will say the statement “Sometimes it is best to complete!”
G-d, our kids, our community choose us both. We did the best we could!
Amazing Grace!
Thank you ..memories and thank goodness we invited a better way -divorce rather than needing death to do us part.
Every moment is a chance to be present! Every moment is a moment to make the next best choice.
Divorced, the light in me knows how to be …
Alive.
I will discover it -the new alive me – with every person I see!
Yay – so so grief- and your stages…
Stages – Denial, Anger, and Bargaining are over -Acceptance – Acceptance and the big D-
Not depression. Decisions – Actions that serve! I kneel.
Beloved Providence –
Life on purpose
Life with only a yes
Life with no complaints
Acceptance
Values
Committed Action
And
Love, love, love!
Accept what you want…
What you have… grateful for it all!
Keep on going ….
I choose to be in deep Oneness together.
If you read this far thank you!
I wrote this because
I dedicated my love to be stable to support you!
I am so grateful
We FOUR
may become Eight
Forever more:
Open heart…
Clear Mind…
Relaxed being
With all my love,
Thank you…
Sacred space we share
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